Day 1

Day 1...again. 
I have had so many day 1s that I should really give it a different name.  You see I'm a quitter and a master excuse maker.  Some of these excuses, in fact most of them can be held up as legitimate reasons for being a quitter, but if I'm being honest they are a good way for me to justify to myself, and give permission to give up on myself.

I am a diabetic, morbidly obese, have mildly reduced kidney function, PCOS, arthritic, and degenerative joint disease, and now I'm having some kind of abdominal issue. I didn't ask for any of this, but I do nothing to make it better. Not for long anyway.  I'm trying to change that, but I have issues and back issues on why it's hard, and why I should allow myself to quit, but if I'm being real, as bad as my health is at the moment, not taking action means death. 
I am not 100% sure what everything will look like, but I'm taking steps to get myself healthy; physically, emotionally and spiritually. What I. Starting with is making some small attainable goals and no real long term goals at this time because I don't want to overwhelm my brain, and the only way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time.  So I am measuring my goals in 3 month incraments. I go to the Dr. Every three months to check my blood work.
I went to my doc last week and I didn't get a full work up, but my numbers are as follows right now.
My average blood sugars are in the 270's  I have an A1C of 9.5 and my weight is 273 my highest weight ever was 293 in 2011.  I take 5 meds daily for my diabetes including insulin. If I'm being honest I don't take any of it correctly if at all.
Now that you know not just my truth, but the actual truth, I should tell you the plan.
First, I have a good support system and am building one.  Immediately, I am working on taking care of whatever this is going on in my stomach, I am at this moment waiting on tests results to know what's going on and the best way to treat it.  I'm going to work on being consistent with the basics of daily life, like taking my meds, trying to get enough sleep etc. I am also starting Plexus. I used it briefly before, but I do know for fact that yeast and gut health are a big part of my issues. I will talk more about that later. I am using the TriPlex at the moment, but I plan on adding some other things as I go forward.  I plan on working on diet and exercise more and more, but I want to succeed this time, and I know it may seem simple, and it kind of is, but simple isn't always easy. 
In the near future I will be going to a healthy living bible study. I want to live a life that is pleasing to God, and I know the lack of caring for his temple and the body he gave me is not very pleasing. I can only move forward from here, so as I lift my pink drink in the air to another day one; I ask you to pray for me. pray that I have strength to keep going when it gets hard, that we quickly find out what's wrong so I can repair and continue. I hope that through this adventure, I will encourage people and maybe make them feel less alone and give someone else the courage to do something, even when it's hard.