My Grandpa a Legacy of Peace

I have had these thoughts about my Grandpa, in my mind for a long time and needed a way to get them out, and I struggled as I am not a great writer.  My son's Spring Concert stirred up even more emotion in me and I have now taken a week to mull it all over and I will still probably be all over the place.  For this I am sorry, I just need to share my heart.

I tried really hard to be happy, but a lot of my Childhood was filled with fear and sadness.  Don't get me wrong, I had A LOT of good times and reason's to be happy, but for me personally life was tough. I always struggled with sleep, even at 6 years old I remember my mind keeping me up, and I wouldn't sleep unless I was so exhausted my little body gave out or I had help.  Once I fell asleep staying asleep wasn't an issue and sometimes lack of sleep would cause me to "pass out" which earned me the nickname Snoozie Q from my Grandpa.  I was very hard to wake up. 
My Grandpa was my best friend growing up.  I am sure he spent time with his other grandchildren alone, but I only remember him with me.  He was an over the road truck driver and usually only home on the weekends, but when he was home he was really there, doing things for Grandma and around the house, driving the church bus and so many other things, but He always had time for me.  He was my Sunday Nap buddy, I always rested well around Grandpa. Psalms 4:8 says In peace I will both lie down and sleep, For You alone, O LORD, make me to dwell in safety. I think Grandpa was the facilitator of this for me.  The Lord gave me Grandpa as my security, my stability in a world that otherwise seemed chaotic.   My Grandfather, still to this day calls me Snoozie Q and although I no longer need him in the same way as I did as a child, my heart is at peace knowing he is around.   Growing up he very rarely was negative around us, and each one of us Grandchildren had a song that was just for us that when he saw us he sang.  He was always happy to be with us. Grandpa is not a perfect man, but I didn't know that as a child, in my eyes he definitely was.